自己不盡懷疑， 我們每個人是不是都不曾了解過任何一個人， 包括自己。

• 十年前的你， 可曾憧憬過會像現在這般生活著？ • 現在的你是否在為了嚮往的十年後而努力的活著。

Hey there, if you're reading this, do finish reading this post to get your head around what this blog is going to be like and decide whether you want to stay on. If you really happen to see this, can you leave a comment on how did you click into this blog?

It was just a thought to maybe pick up blogging again to express my emotions and thoughts exceeding 280 characters. I somehow feel bad to tweet so much every day, even if it's my second account that only has less than 15 followers. I have a journal and I do use it almost every night, but due to the size I can't carry it everywhere. Twitter has always been my best companion when I need to speak out my mind or release stress or anything. I sometimes don't get why expressing both positive and negative thoughts on Twitter makes people think that I am someone who complains alot and doesn't appreciate all the things I have. I am not like that and maybe I shouldn't care about their views. 

If you're reading this, just want to give you a heads up that I have no plans to establish this blog into those fancy blogs out there. It's just my own lil world, with my daily random thought, feelings, and past memories. I will still post photos and talk about my previous trips, but keep in mind that the posts won't come in order. I have had enough schedules and plans in hi real life, and I just want to be a lil disorganised and messy here, without worrying.

Blogging has always been a disrupted process since high school. I started this blog since 2010 and I started Dayre in 2014 but I stopped both for a very long time. You can find some of my very old posts dated back in high school here, and laugh at how naive and negative this lady was when she was a girl. And oh, my writing style is/has always been pretty dull tho I am still improving. Just not a person that's good at expressing herself but she is learning. She is always learning and improving, even though the progress might be slow. Everyone has their own timeline remember? :) 

So, I changed the blogspot theme but still kept the old photos on the board. Should I change all of them one day? And, I am too lazy to work around how to customise the theme html. There are very limited free blogspot themes, hence I just leave those unfixed be it, as long as the posts can be seen then it's all good. 

It's 3am again. 

Oh, I had roti canai for dinner today. So satisfied. Been craving for quite awhile hehe. This Malaysian Kampung Restaurant in Melbourne is a very small restaurant beside a carwash, but it is the closest thing you can find to the Malaysian mamak. The dishes are authentic mamak dishes, nasi lemak, mi goreng, roti canai, sambal and dahl, nasi kandar, teh tarik, etc. It surprised me a lot when I entered the restaurant for the first time few years back, it just smells like home, that mamak/stalls smell. And you'll smell like food afterwards and your clothes as well. 

So grateful that Melbourne has a lot of good food for different cuisines, and most of the time you will be able to find authentic ones that taste close to their origins by trials and errors/surveys. Japanese, Korean, Malaysian, Chinese, Italian, you name it. 

I think I should sleep instead of thinking of food. Losing fats is a very long journey, you have to fuel yourself to keep going. ;) hahahahahaha 

Till then!

- 0314 -

It's 3am I know I should be sleeping but I have no idea why am I not sleepy yet.

Some random thoughts to pick up blogging again, whether to continue using this blog or start a new blog on Wix. I used Dayre before 2015-2017 but I didn't really use it that often during that period. I know I am a lazy bug who doesn't commit a lot of time to blogging yet still feel like having a platform to express my feelings and thoughts at times like these. I don't want to spam too much on Twitter. Or maybe I should just keep a journal. I actually have a journal but most of the time you won't want to get up and write while you're already in bed.

Anyway, this blog has been seriously dead for YEARS. Haven't changed a single thing on my profile descriptions, blog template and photos. If any of you happen to read this post, did you have fun looking at the old photos? Look at how young and naive we were :)

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I wonder why going to supermarket gives me joy. I feel happy or at least calm whenever I go to supermarket, although I have nothing to buy. Just the thought of looking at variety of foods gives me happiness. I think it's a good thing, right? It's also some sort of training to refrain myself from getting all the unhealthy food that I want to eat.

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Work has been pretty boring ever since I came back from my trip. Can I have more exciting projects? I need to find a way to focus and learn to work when it's boring. I feel like I am more of an admin more than project engineer now. The first four months of 2019 were so great and I learnt and grew so much. *Wishing for more exciting projects*

I shall really sleep or else it will be difficult to focus in the office tomorrow.

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No matter how boring or difficult life is,
Remember to find joy in all the little things that happen around you. :)

- 0320 -

- Toodles -

"" 世界常是黑白相間，光暗並行的，常常好與壞、真與假，疊在一塊，融成灰色。

稍微不如己意就瞬間揚棄過往的好，說著難聽的話卻沒發現誰也沒欠你；

吳青峰, 陳粒〈空舞〉

每个人在你生命里出现的意义都不同。 也许他的出现是为了让以前的你勇敢踏出自己的舒适圈，就踏出了那么一小步认识更多不同高中的朋友。 然而因你自己的努力和不懈也何其幸运地把友情维持到了现在， 虽然不常联络但他们都还在远方给予你支持与关怀。 一直很想感谢他当年看似无意的举动竟然悄声无息地改变了其中一部分想要有变化的你（和命运）。 

现在已是 2019年5月5日早上6点22分。 还在这里打着这一篇， 看来你真的很需要一个出口。 其实说真的如果不知道他们告诉你的那一些事然后不能把这些细节拼凑起来，你也真的根本不会有这些想法。 无论如何， 你会好的， 真的， 这没什么。 你只是需要一个把这些从心里都输出去的地方， 然后会好的。  这也可能是时差在作祟。