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Lol I don't know how to type already... xDlearnt some but still not 
used to it... so.. I'm still learning.


Well, time past so fast, as always...11 months already... 
since I entered S.A.M..
South Australia Matriculation, was once, 
only a NAME that makes people feel confused, worried, scared; 
of course, it was also a name that makes people to have anticipation, 
excitement......
To tell the truth, I still don't know/ understand why I chose this path.
A path that is... tiring, torturing.
Everything I did was like, ohhh *pooofff*, all your hard work is gone 
once your tests/exams finished. No matter how hard I worked, 
how many effort I'd put in, how many midnight oil I'd burnt, 
I would only end up ruining my own class tests/ exams. 
I ruined my 70% internal, and also 30% external.I cannot imagine 
what will be my final results in the end which I will get VERY SOON, 
a week before Christmas. 
It's really SAD and DISAPPOINTING.
I always hate myself for being such an useless and stupid idiot.
Erh, although I know I'm not really useless, or stupid.
I still couldn't stop worrying and thinking, 
Every time before or after class test, there would be another class test.
Test, test, test, test, test, almost every week.
Holidays were not holidays.
They were just days without college for us to study, practise, and 
do assignments.
Last minute is not encouraged? 
or I should say, last minute is definitely not allowed?!
So what?!
There were still sooooooo many people that study or do assignments 
last minute, but ended up...?
The one who did not do things last minute, did very badly in everything.
Not to say I didn't do things last minute, but the feeling was like.... 

WHAT? THE? HEck? 

The worst part was, I knew I could do well WITHOUT tests/exams, 
but when there were exams going on, I will just end up ruining them.
Especially mathematics. 
horrrr I really hate myself.
I was once a person that could do mathematics like... 
I don't know how to describe...
The feeling was like "woohooo damn syok!" after doing maths because 
of the SPEED and ACCURACY..
but now?! hahahahaha I will be very grateful if my works don't 
look like pieces of shxts. 
My s.maths internal was really .... SHXT ahahaha
I can only laugh at myself now.
How could I do that? How can I do that to myself?!
Why you let yourself down?
*sigh* I couldn't control my mind when I was sitting for those class
tests... Just 2 words in my mind: 惧怕。
Maybe that's why I couldn't do well for EVERY class tests.
Me this stupid fellow can do fast and quite accurate for exercises 
when there were no tests.
Not to say my maths is bad, or good..
but at least I can do much better without tests.
HAHAHA stupid mind is still stupid and crazy...
I don't know I cried for how many times, how many days, how many 
nights... What I did was just, crying and non-stop crying in the dark 
and inside my heart.
You don't know the disappointment, you can't imagine the sadness.
How disappointed I was, how sad I was, how stupid I was...
S.maths actually no hope jor, but I still worked so hard, just to hope 
that I can do really well for external 30%.
But what can I change if I can score high for the 30%?!
I don't think that will really help.
Finish talking about maths and s.maths,
now... Economics? 
hahahaha what a twist. 
At first, I really dislike what accounting, economics, business these
types... I think I don't have any talent or interest..
Now also lar, I don't really like to study economics...
But I kinda like economics now because I scored quite well.
Cannot say that I scored very well, but I think I scored QUITE well. 
At least it's the best subject among those 5 subjects..
59/70 for internal... not enough actually.
Now I regret I didn't do well for the first essay test.
If only I could do well for the first essay test, then I could really get
at least above 8.0 or 8.5 for every 10%.
LOL. Everything is over lar, no more regrets please.
But there's one thing I want to scold myself,
WHY DID YOU DO SO BADLY FOR FINALS?!
I was aiming for the results that teacher gave me for forecast,
but then, I think I will let her down when I get my results.
That damn essay. Or I should say, you damn brain.
What were you doing?! Aghhhhh ! 
Hope I still can get a not-so-UGLY mark for the essay... 
*fingers-crossed*
If I get bad marks in the end I think I will cry very hard :(
I ruined my best subject again...
There's only one subject I can sort of 'brag' about... LOL
Nothing to be proud actually =___= just ignore hahaha
Well, for Chemistry...
First: Many people think that Chemistry so mafan lar, so many things to remember lar, etc... yes it's true, but I still love Chemistry like I always
do. HEHEHE not much comment for Chem.
Second: I love Ms Kwa so much hahaha
She's sooooo cute! Although the second impression she gave us was really.. kinda.. bad... haha
but then, she's really cute and GOOD. No doubt.
Why second impression? Because... The first impression was last year,
when I was in Taylor's to register for SAM. She was the one who 
helped me xD She was so kind and cute, that time I thought, "How nice if she can teach me Chemistry!"
The first half year, our lecturer was Ms Isabel. 
I like her too, she's cute and kind. But then, there's something I don't want to type here. 
I think Ms Kwa is much better... Sorry Ms Isabel. hehe...
Okay back to Ms Kwa.
That time we were like, "huh? oh no? how? why?" etc etc...
but then, as time went by, we like her so much! =D 
Right SP1? hehe
A teacher I like + a subject I like = GREAT
Although I couldn't score really well for Chemistry, I'm still quite
satisfied with my internal assessments. 56/70
Not really good, but not really bad too.
I just hope that in the end I can get at least A- overall for Chem. =)
*pray hard* 
Last subject... Physics T.T
haih physics is just not my type. I couldn't do well after the retest thingy happened.
I did quite well before the retest, but after the retest, 已经心灰意冷了。
Things that were not happy, I don't really feel like typing them.
Just let them be. 
I was quite angry actually, why do we have to retest?
It's just a WASTE of time and it's SO SUPER UNFAIR for us who prepared for it and scored well for it.
ARGHHHH. 说真的，到现在我其实还不能妥协，因为我觉得
实在没有必要去重考。多不公平啊？！
你们说，对你们考不好的不公平？什么话？这世界上不能
每做一件事，就有再来一次，重来一次的道理。
我们不是应该都全力以赴吗？没有准备好，所以考不好？
还是什么其他原因？所以？只有你们不够时间所以考不好？
我们都是同班的，你们不够时间准备＝我们也应该一样。
也许你们会说，‘我们’的头脑比较好，当然可以再考过，
一样可以再考好。是么？不是每个人考得好的都是头脑好的，
就像我，都是靠运气的（也许可以这么说）。
算了。不想考都考了，可能是因为含着怨气所以第二次过后
就再也考不好了吧。还真笨。哈哈哈哈
Anyway, for physics, I just couldn't do well hahahaha I even failed my last class test wtf. External also, I think I did super badly. hehehe
It's the best if physics becomes my worst subject. Then I can push s.maths as my best 4. xD
I don't know why I just couldn't understand physics when all you need  for this subject is understanding and concepts.
Hah hah hah. 
至于老师... 我其实还是会觉得如果第一或第二个星期的时候
真的决定申请换老师的话... 也许都会比较好。
不是说老师不好，只是也许我的确不能适应他的教学方式吧。
okay lar, 反正已经是没有救了，那就不要再多想。xD


有时候我在想... 
头脑还真是随着年龄的增长，而渐渐缩小、变得越来越笨呢。
有时我还真鄙视我自己。
hahahahahaha but what can I do now?
NOTHING!
I'm waiting for results at home right now. 
Everything is already fixed, no more changes can be done.
So... just don't torture yourself with those bad things any more.
But still, cannot forget, must use them as 'mirrors' or references 
in the future. Do not let the same thing happen once again.
Wheeee~ 



ahaaaa it's not exactly everything is torturing and bad lar...
There's something I'm still quite proud of myself. =P
At least I still proved that I can do quite well in maths...
Euclids! I love you LOL
Thanks for giving me a little bit confidence. =)

hehehehe *happy*

Not everyone could get this! 
至少我是那样的安慰自己。
可能只有这样才不会让我越来越自卑吧......虽然说只是才刚好过了那个‘分数槛’ 。。。
可是，其实想到你和其他那么多厉害的人都拿到的时候，你会觉得...
哇，原来我也可以像他们一样! 这样至少在我失落，自卑的时候，
有了一个可以自我安慰，鼓励自己再撑下去的理由。
你知道吗？当我得知消息，知道我竟然score 到这个的时候，
我整个人是 “什么？！确定是我？！我的数学不是已经退步到连一般
不是很难的考试都考不好了吗？！怎么会这样？！”
那个时候是... 你这什么奇怪的人？只有那些数学十分优秀的朋友才
得到的，怎么竟然你也有份了呢？
你知道得到的人有谁吗？
1. 我班数学最最最厉害的、2. 我班的ex同学, 已经拿奖学金转去Alevels，
数学也是很厉害的同学、3. 比我大一年的学长，数学也是超棒、
4. 和我同班同校很多年的老朋友、5. 以前是我朋友的朋友，吧生人，
但现在是我的朋友，而且是成绩很好却已经拿奖学金离开了Taylors的
朋友、6. 巴生人，在补习时候认识的，成绩十分漂亮的朋友、等等等等。
这张纸不多人拿到，但我却拿到了。
我真的觉得超级讽刺。我是一个数学已经退步到连考试都考不好的
人，却和那些平时可以考到很好的朋友一样拿到这个......

真的很讽刺很心酸。

因为此事，我还哭过好多天......
今年流的眼泪实在是太多了....... HAHAHAHA 
有几次我都很认真在想，是不是因为这不是考试，所以我根本就
没那么多的顾虑、烦恼、紧张、恐惧，然后就可以很顺利地，
就做得还不错？
或许吧。我妈就说我啊，如果我考试的时候能这样就好...
horr 你以为我不想吗? hahahaha 
如果可以的话，我现在就不会落得如此下场! xD
好了啦，都已经过去了... 就... 放开一点咯。
虽说如此... 可是哪里有那么容易就能让我自己释怀呢...
尤其是像我这种容易想很多、胡思乱想的人 =P 

LOL ........................... Typed till half way changed to Chinese...
hahahahaha typical me. XD

以上都好像只有不好的回忆 horr... 
其实这一年来，也不全是不好的啦!
至少我有一班很可爱很好笑很爱玩很友好很棒的朋友们!!! 
College 有它的不同之处。
也许很痛苦很辛苦，也或许会很累，但是它还是有它很美好的地方。
获益最多的，其实是有了一班友好，不会很计较，又很乐意分享的
朋友。
不像有些班啊，做assignments 的时候都很自私，不会讨论问题。
可我们呢？有时还讨论到‘吵’起来。哈哈
互相帮忙是好的，更好的是中间没有夹着抄袭这两个字。
虽然我很多时候会很很恨不爽班上真的很吵（毕竟我还是那个算
比较静，少说话的那一个）
可是有时候又觉得怎么可以有一班有那么多东西拿来制造‘噪音’
的同学。。
是很矛盾。哈哈哈。习惯就好。
对这一班朋友的第一印象：分三派。
因为桌子的排法。
一派：都是成绩好，会说华语的。
二派：中间。
三派：比较爱玩，friendly, 受英文教育的。
刚开始的时候，我是属于那中间的。
可换了课室过后，不知不觉地还是走向了会说华语的那一群。
哈哈。也许是因为思想和行为都比较合得来或一致吧。
可是当然啦，和其他人还是可以很好的 xD

十一个月的时间其实真的过得很快... 
请原谅我用小孩子说故事的方式来写博客，因为我的语文一向来
都不好。
书虽然是读得多，可是我却吸收不了那种写作方式。
paiseh lar~
十一个月里面我们做了很多事情 xD 
一起笑一起闹一起玩 =D
而且... 很快地，在我班里就产生了三对情侣!
一半的女生都被把了... haha 
现在应该还有两对在'暧昧'着，还没有什么进一步的进展吧...
只剩我了... 什么都没有 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈! 

First day of college :)

The first class we were in - AQUARIUM!

First few days

Table 1 + 2 behind

Table 3

Table 4

Smilee

Ramli burger as lunch!

Whole class lunch at Foh Foh

Original number of girls! *8* =D

random pic in class before changing our classroom.

Scholarships! RM4k for me xD

Group pic before Bo was going to leave..

Recording for Moral Studies project

Water rocket! Failed experiment.. xD

Note the pens.. What we did when we were boring =D

Couple 1 : Shaun & Mei Shia =)

Couple 2 : Samantha & Julian =)

Couple 3 : Lillian & Jim =)

McD breakfast!

View in class. xD

Random pic in class

Random pic 2

C21

View from my seat xD

SS time! Julian's camwhore skill BEST !

XD

Group pic after taking SAM t-shirt on the last day of final!

Me and Joshua's hard work for the yearbook =) Don't really like what I did because it's... not nice...

I really enjoyed the days I spent with them, especially those days before finals.
It was really fun to be in a class with them =)
Thank you so much SP1 !
We'll always be the cute, cool, fun, warm class.
I really wish that we will still contact each other no matter how many years later!

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Must mention:

Hehehehehe

Me drawing =P

"bullying" ?! XD

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Dylan's birthday.

Yihao's birthday

Ben's birthday

The famous panorama xD

We always hang out in music chamber! Part of our memories =)

Oh yeah! Complete pic of this family ♥